Life is Fiction


This weekend is the annual Jim Syron float on the Yellowstone River.

I wrote the following words a few days after his death and I planned on reading this at Jim’s wake, but I could not; I can still barely read it today. By the way, this is my least favorite week of the year.

Life is Fiction


Dark clouds swirled through Paradise Valley all morning.  Streaks of rain swept down the mountain slopes as if they had been painted by a great artist.  Along the Yellowstone River, the sun was sneaking through the clouds just enough to give the valley a brilliant greenish-gold tinge.  Spring’s arrival of birds filled the river bottom with the sound of life.  As we stood waiting for the remainder of our group, Megan and I skipped rocks into the murky water.  With Megan being a geologist and myself being a geographer, we laughed about how there in that small valley our two disciplines met head-on everyday.  The wind and water continued to beat against the rocks in an attempt to expose Earth’s history.  We loved living in Montana. 

When our party showed-up, we unloaded the canoes and kayaks while anticipating the first float of the season.  The trip was to celebrate two birthdays and our home, Greater Yellowstone.  We weren’t really worried when Jim didn’t show; Jim was a great student, and with finals approaching he was most likely in the library preparing for his final few tests; that is where I should have been. We enjoyed the river for him on that day.  We floated in and around fast spots in the river, played on rock islands, and reminisced about all our history in the region, as osprey and eagles hovered above. Nature reminded us about spring in Montana with gusts of wind and a few short periods of rain that would fade back into sunshine once again. 

By evening we were at camp, and our party’s numbers steadily grew.  By dark there were maybe twenty-five friends in camp; we all had worked in Yellowstone at one time or another.  The Yellowstone family was great to be a part of.  When Jim still didn’t show, we laughed about him canoeing in the dark, but we really believed he was stuck in town with school work.  We enjoyed good food and drinks until late in the evening. 

Sunday morning was beautiful; a dusting of snow covered the surrounding peaks, only to taper off at the lower elevations.  The overnight rain made the air feel crisp, as puffy white clouds sailed across the sky.  Megan and I spent the day in Yellowstone; it was opening weekend.  We had always loved spring in the park.  For old Yellowstoners, that time of year has always been special.  Mother nature seemed to pull the white blanket of snow back just in time for baby animals to arrive: it was time for new beginnings.

For me, the new beginnings of life seemed just around the corner; I was to graduate in two weeks, and marry Megan in one month.  As we had been doing my entire senior year, Jim, Katie, Dave, and myself were to meet for coffee between classes.  When Jim didn’t show, we figured he was studying; I thought about that all day.  In the evening, I was watching the news before going to bed.  When they mentioned a man had been killed on his bike on Friday, and still had not been identified, I got one of those feelings that we never want to have.  For a few minutes, I paced the floor, afraid that my mind would even think those thoughts.  After calling Jim’s and not  receiving an answer, I went to his apartment.  The door was ajar about two inches, which at first gave me a feeling of ease, but that quickly faded.  Mail was still in the mailbox, there was old food on the stove, and Jim’s touring bike was gone. 

Back home, I talked to Sean, one of Jim’s oldest friends.  We agreed that I should call the coroner.  After I described Jim, the coroner told me it sounded like we were talking about the same man.  We made plans to meet the next morning.  Trying to sleep was all but impossible; I tossed and turned, while slipping in and out of consciousness.

On Tuesday, I went to school around 6 AM, in an attempt to study.  It was impossible to concentrate on work; thoughts of Jim were all I could filter from my head.  At 8 AM, Sean and I met with the coroner; our worst fears were realized; Jim was dead.  Identifying a friend is something we should never need to go through.   

The day continued like a dream; dozens of Jim’s friends started to arrive from all directions.  Phone calls by the hundreds, along with tears and laughter dominated the day.  We told old stories, including the way Jim shifted his green onions from hand to hand when we were in the backcountry, in an attempt to decide how many to use for each meal; he was a numbers man. We laughed at the way he wore those black socks with his shorts, and about the green slacks he always loved.  I could picture the web of Jim’s life connecting to all parts of the country: calls from Yellowstone to Arizona, Wisconsin, Maine, Washington, and beyond.  There was food and wine, and more tears. 

Later in the day, as I sat on my front steps, I found myself waiting for Jim to come walking around the corner, something I had witnessed many times.  But Jim never showed, because that would have been real life, and we all know life is fiction.  I miss him. 

George Heinz











7 thoughts on “Life is Fiction

  1. I remember David Bundy calling me with the news. At the time I was in massage school in northern California, and the spring flowers had burst forth on the beautiful rolling hills of the 240 acre campus. I got off of the pay phone with David, sat amidst all of those tiny new flowers and cried. I felt so far away from Yellowstone. Jim had taught me so much about the wildflowers in the Yellowstone ecosystem so I decided I’d pay tribute to him by buying a flower book in town the next day and learning the plants of northern CA. Ironically, the last time I’d seen Jim was 2 years before, while David and I took 4 months to backpack thru CA, OR, WA and Canada. We stumbled upon one another in Oregon, and yep, we talked flowers and shared some cold beers for a couple of nights at a campsite before going our separate ways. It was the last time I saw or spoke with him, well, in person that is…….

  2. Robbie Heathcock commented on your link.

    Robbie wrote: “I’ve never read this before, and I never knew of the details at the end. Tim and I were in Tucson during this time, and I never asked questions, as I didn’t want to open wounds. I’m absolutely heart broken that he was even considered a man without a name for even one day. We loved playing with him, working HPC with him and he was family. I also hurt for George and Sean, for taking on such a difficult, life-changing task. Thank you for sharing this beautiful story of a very loved and missed man. It is so touching watching you all keep his memory alive through all these years. I honestly can still hear his laugh.”

  3. Andrew Williams commented on your link.

    Andrew wrote: “George, your skill at writing is superb. But your ability to let your readers feel your joy, your heartache, your peace and your emotions is nothing short of spectacular. I hope someday to be able to move people as you do. Thank you for sharing this unforgettable moment in your life.”

  4. I never knew these details, and of course, never had the privilege of knowng Jim. But I have lost several members of my Yellowstone family, and know the intimacy and heartache of a best friend lost. You capture the moment poignantly and beautifully. The Syron Memorial Float gathering, and all the gatherings in which I cross paths with your family and others are such a sweet joy, and fulfilling connection with this beautiful, unique, crazy community. Thanks for sharing this.

  5. “Sweet is the memory of distant friends! Like the mellow rays of the departing son, it falls tenderly, yet sadly, on the heart.” – Washington Irving

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